Perfect For Me

I think I am a hopeless romantic. I know it sounds corny, but I am. I am sure you all know I am divorced. I made my fair share of mistakes to get to that point. I am far from perfect. Although I am sure you all think I am. Here is the funny part. I have been on one real date in over a year. The deal is and this may seem like the wrong approach... But I just want to look at someone and just know. I want to just see someone and have that feeling that you know beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you could be with that person forever. I don't know that I can settle for anything less. The problem is, when I see that someone and I ask them out, I get the (insert different 'no' answers).

It's times like these that I sit and wonder what it is about me that makes me so hideous? Is it me? Is it my divorce? Is it that I have two kids full time? Is it my living arrangements? Maybe its all of them. Maybe women just see the outside and not what I can give. Someone asked me the other day why I don't date? It's these reasons. I am sure I am being picky. I get that. But I don't want to make any more mistakes. I want to do it right this time.

I guess in the grand scheme of things, it's okay that I have been rejected the last five times I have asked someone out. I have two beautiful children that I am raising. I am not sure how I would handle a relationship and how that person would handle the time I have to put in for my children. I want to try, but its not easy finding someone who is perfect for me. I want it to happen. I think about it all the time. If you are out there, I can make you happy... Wherever you are.