Under The Influence

I honestly didnt know what to expect? One of my favorite comedians Marcus was doing this one time show where he did impressions of singers. I was a bit concerned based on the fact that musicians have unique voices. How is he going to do this? Well he did it. I am not going to give a thing away just incase something gets done with this. But he killed it. I couldn't believe the vocal range he had and he isn't even a singer. If he gets a chance to get this out to the public, I would definitely let everyone know to check it out. I am not going to lie, I am extremely jealous with people that have this much talent. I am happy for Marcus for finally getting a crack at this. He should be proud. He did it justice. If it for some odd reason happens again and I post about it, get your tickets!!!

Humbled

My father asked me Sunday night why I have been so charitable this year. I just ignored him because I don't like to vocally talk about things for some reason. Well here is my reason...

I am humbled. The past year and a half has been difficult for my family. My parents to be exact. Last year my Dad had heart surgery and then had to handle prostate cancer as soon as he had recovered. It was a difficult time for me since he has been my best friend my whole life. Not knowing about this type of cancer, I broke down the minute I heard. Luckily I have caring friends at work. Things went really well for him and he had been doing great until his stint caved and had surgery again for his heart. Thankfully my pops is old school and tough as nails.

Recently my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. If there is one person in the world that doesn't deserve this, it's her. Words cannot express how amazing she is. When she was young, she had to give up dancing and get an artificial hip. She was in a body cast for months. Since then, she has had to endure that aspect of her life since she was a teenager. Not being able to do certain things with her kids, activities she enjoys, etc. She also has Meniere's Disease, which is basically having vertigo the rest of your life. With all of this, she never stopped being positive. She never stopped being the sweet honest person I know and love. With the latest news, I couldn't help but think...Why her? She has a reserved spot in heaven, this I am sure of.

So with all of this happening, I am simply humbled. Humbled in the fact that life is precious. Things can be taken away from you at any moment. I am not looking for any personal gain. I am not a doctor. I can't help my mom or dad with any of these things. I can't help anyone with these types of problems. So I sat back and refocused on what I could do to help others. I will always be around to help someone out with a broken heart or someone who just needed to vent and take it out on someone, but I needed to step it up. I just want to be someone who is helping change the world. One act of kindness at a time. I hope you all can join me in trying to do more.

I have a facebook friend that started a page to post things on for charities and also for you to just know what is out there give a lending hand. It was a great idea and I love her for it. So go to this page, like it and stay informed on making a difference in peoples lives.

https://www.facebook.com/pages/United-Community/304933469527303

Thanks everyone for thoughts and prayers when I need them most.

Remember... Everyone is beautiful

C-Dub

Positive Vibes

I feel great. Well emotionally anyways. (Physically a different story.) I had been in this god awful funk that I couldn't shake and I did my best to hide it. But I have battled through it and I am not letting anything get to me. My kids are amazing as always. I am enjoying being busy at work and making a difference again. I am dating again, but keeping it fun and not expecting anything at all. So I can't complain to much.

Maybe its the holidays. I love watching my kids be excited for them. I still have a lot going on that could bring me down fast. But I can't allow that to happen. I have a family member in my life that needs nothing but positive reinforcement and that's what I am going to do.

Life is a blessing people. Family is everything. Never take it for granted and enjoy every minute of it. Be there for them and look out for each other. I love all of you and hope you have a wonderful holiday. Be safe.

P.S. Remember to look in the mirror and always tell yourself that you are beautiful.

C-Dub

My fingers hurt

Normally I would say it was a horrible weekend when your oldest is laying on the couch sick the whole time. That part of the weekend was awful. I hate not being able to take the pain away immediately for my kids. But on the brighter side, I picked up my new acoustic guitar that I have been wanting for quite sometime. I actually stopped playing for almost two months because I hated the one I had. It made my fingers hurt! I know I know they are suppose to. But this guitar was a beast. My friend who has been teaching me said it will go away after a couple of weeks of playing... It never did.

Back to my point... So while my girl was trying to sleep this cold or whatever off, I ran over and grabbed my new baby. I came home and played, played and played some more. I have been learning a little CCR Bad Moon Rising. Annnnd I gotta say.... I suck. But my fingers love me for not killing them all the time now. So I spent the entire weekend inside with my sick girl which has been shitty. But I got to play music really badly with fingers still intact.

What I am getting at, is don't skimp on a cheap guitar even when you are starting out.

Teaching has helped me learn

Well its been over a year now that I have had my kids on a full time basis. I have had some hard times, but a lot of great times. I may complain a lot about being lonely and being turned down on dates, but ultimately I get over it quick. I have two amazing kids that want to be with me all the time. When I do get the rare occasion to go out, my kids are always on my mind and I get calls from them telling me they miss me.

The past year has made me realize that being single and raising these two hooligans has also made me go after opportunities I never tried when I was married. I can't understand why that is. I am working hard at getting my baseball hitting lessons going. I have been working with friends to get me geared up for that. I am extremely excited for that chance. I have been playing guitar.... Hang on.... I have been attempting to play guitar and love it. Its a great outlet and has interested Taylor and Jaxon to learn more as well.

Anyways, here is a list of things I thought could help other parents or future parents out with. These are things that I have not necessarily learned in this past year, but overall...

1. Kids are lunatics.
2. Don't make fun of their dancing.
3. Take the asprins advice when it says to keep away from kids and walk away.
4. Do not let them watch Disney, Nick, Cartoon Network etc. on the big screen. You don't get it back.  
5. Have your kids take showers really really late. They just get sweaty and dirty again if its to early
6. Have their eyes checked frequently. For some reason they can walk by something laying on the ground and not pick it up.
7. Telling your kids that you are allergic to veggies does not work. They think they are too.
8. No point in having a California king bed. They sneak in at night and nuzzle up right next to you. Buy a twin and say tough... no room.
9. Enjoy the first year child's life of not walking or talking. Once they do, you long for adult conversations.
10. Do not assume that your kids will not pick up submission moves from watching MMA.
11. Yelling I love you to your 5th grade daughter in a semi rutarded tone as she walks to her class is entertaining and vengeful at the same time.
12. Don't scare your kids, they will get you back.
13. Let your kids win at board games.
14. Don't say something if you don't want it repeated at the worst and most inopportune time.
15. Teaching your kids how to turn your straw wrapper into a missile launcher can be a bad idea in restaurants.
16. Make sure your kids go to the bathroom before the movie starts.
17. Plan on sharing everything with them. Just make double...or triple.
18. Make your kids watch Hoarders. They may understand that they don't need to keep happy meal toys from four years ago.
19. Find a nerf ball and just throw it at them from time to time. Its great fun.
20. Last but not least.... When playing catch, do not turn your head and leave your groin unprotected. 

Love your kids with all of your heart. They are a preview of what heaven will be.

Talk at ya later

C-Dub

Perfect For Me

I think I am a hopeless romantic. I know it sounds corny, but I am. I am sure you all know I am divorced. I made my fair share of mistakes to get to that point. I am far from perfect. Although I am sure you all think I am. Here is the funny part. I have been on one real date in over a year. The deal is and this may seem like the wrong approach... But I just want to look at someone and just know. I want to just see someone and have that feeling that you know beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you could be with that person forever. I don't know that I can settle for anything less. The problem is, when I see that someone and I ask them out, I get the (insert different 'no' answers).

It's times like these that I sit and wonder what it is about me that makes me so hideous? Is it me? Is it my divorce? Is it that I have two kids full time? Is it my living arrangements? Maybe its all of them. Maybe women just see the outside and not what I can give. Someone asked me the other day why I don't date? It's these reasons. I am sure I am being picky. I get that. But I don't want to make any more mistakes. I want to do it right this time.

I guess in the grand scheme of things, it's okay that I have been rejected the last five times I have asked someone out. I have two beautiful children that I am raising. I am not sure how I would handle a relationship and how that person would handle the time I have to put in for my children. I want to try, but its not easy finding someone who is perfect for me. I want it to happen. I think about it all the time. If you are out there, I can make you happy... Wherever you are.

What I would give to not have to shop...

I would give one of my testicles to not have to shop for school clothes. Now I know what you are thinking... Thats pretty absurd, preposterous!!! Its not that big of a deal, I have three. Its okay.

So I have a daughter that has a waist that flat out does not coincide with the length of the leg area. Thats been fun looking around. She has to wear these clod hopper DC shoes while nice looking, can become a dangerous weapon at any moment from them flying off like a friggin NINJA STAR!!! Her shirts are fun. Actually I love that part of her. She follows after me and just likes plain shirts. Asking her to try clothes on in the changing room is like asking the LDS prophet if he wants to get tanked.

My boy... Well he is still young and doesn't have much of a choice. I forget what it was like to be a kid and want cool things on your shirt. This year he will be representing the full cast of Mario Kart. uuuuhhhhh Ya... that's rockin little dude. But the kid is rocking a sweet Star Wars lunch box... Old School lunchbox!!

School shopping for me is about as fun as a root canal. Yet I got it done. I have little money now. ANNND next year someone will be hired to do this for me. I will start taking applications now.