Vaca for the kids

My kids are going on vacation with their Mom tomorrow. I have already cried three times and they haven't even left yet. I sit and wish that it was me taking them somewhere. But its just not in the cards right now. I have had a lot of emotions as this date approached. I love having them everyday and have had it that way for awhile now. They are my best friends. I love spending every minute I can with them. Its only for five or six days, but I am not going to have any idea what to do with myself.

I protect my kids. Maybe over protective...okay a lot. But I am trying to reduce that so they can experience life. Make em street tough! I want them to understand they can do anything they want. They need to take it if they want something bad enough. They both have already shown to me that they have that desire. Dream big! Go big! No matter what, I will always be there for them. I just worry what I am trying to teach them may get changed based on other people on their lives. So I am having such a hard time right now.

We have formed such an amazing bond. Hopefully a bond that will last for all of our lives. Knowing what we have done for each other, knowing that they have changed me as a man. Hopefully knowing that I have changed them for the better. They are caring beautiful children. I may not portray it, but I am one of the luckiest guys alive.

Whatchu got?? ....Nuttin man

I have not blogged for a while and to be honest, I really don't have anything to blog about. So I am just giving a good ole fashioned update.

For some reason, I decided to coach baseball again. I just can't bring myself to let someone else coach Jaxon for baseball when I clearly know everything there is to know. The hard part is going to be coaching Jaxon and Taylor is playing soccer. I hate that she is so good at it. Stupid soccer. But I support her no matter what. Jaxons swing has really improved over the winter. I have only had a couple of practices and a few parents have complimented me about him. He is six years old and taking on a leadership role. Keeping the other kids from goofing off and hustling. Extremely proud of that little guy. Taylor has turned into a flat out skater. She spends a lot of time outside to board. She keeps begging me to take her to the skate park, but I am nervous.

Work has been insane as usual. I took a nice break from it in December. I was completely fried out. The hard part with that is, I still am. I have been fighting to stay motivated. I have to for my kids, but honestly I wish I had a few months off to recharge.

Love life... No love yet. I tend to think that the women I am interested do not want to give it a shot because of my situation. Having the kids full time. Having kids at all. Not being the get out and party a lot type. Its not me. It makes it a lot harder. But I am content. I wine and post shit about being alone. I have my weak moments. I am alone and do wish I was with someone. But I know that this is my life now. I put myself in this position. I wouldn't change it for the world. I have my two perfect children full time. Taylor begs and begs for me to date. She wants another girl in the house. Maybe someday. Maybe one day, that special someone is gonna wake up and realize I am a good catch. Duh! Come on already! ;)

Jazz season just about done. My pops didn't renew his seats for next season, so I bought his seat. Should be interesting because all my friends this year dog me...Assfaces!

Overall, really excited for the spring and summer. My favorite time of year. Excited to camp and get our 4 wheelin on. Excited to just be outside and chill. I am like Craig from Friday. But without Smokey. "How you get fired on yo day off?"

Well thats all I got ladies and genitals. Nothing exciting to report. Nothing funny to talk about. Motivation is needed. Maybe when this weather changes. Until next time peeps.

Peeeaaaace!

This game of golf I love so much

So here is the deal....

I am not the best golfer. I have my moments.. A few holes here and there where it makes you go back for more. Last year I worked hard on my driving. I am consistently hitting the golf ball for really good distance and hitting the fairways with a high percentage. I thank The Chad for the distance with the workouts I have been doing for a year now. Now the problem lies with my Par 5 fairway woods and anything from 100 yards out. I will be working hard on that this year.

But here is some advice and stories over the last couple of years that may help you...

My problem is, with all the hits I collected over the years in baseball, I can get in one round of golf. Stupid game! A couple of years ago, I was playing at gorgeous Valley View golf course. A deer was standing right in the middle of the fairway. I was trying to scare it and get it to move. So I thought... Well its her fault and I swung away. It was a high towering shot! To the right. Wayyyy right. So I guess the deer knew the best place to stand after all. I hope God knows to just wipe out all the times I used his name in vain since the course is where I happen to use it the most.

The hardest part about golf is the mother effing cost! And its not the cost of playing. Its the clubs I keep losing. Someone asked me once "Why did you get a new putter?" to which I replied "Since I learned that the old one didn't float to well." Here is a rule for you all. If you are going to throw your clubs, make sure its down the fairway or to the next tee box. Saves you a lot of time and money.

I also suggest that you always go golfing with someone else. So when you hit the ball. The other person can also say.. "I have no idea where that went??" Then you can look together. Its like a mini adventure.

Then there is always the free show you might come across of a couple using the golf cart like its prom night in a limo. I mean full on.... like...GET ME SOME POPCORN!!

But most importantly...The laughter. It is hard to beat a day on the course with some good friends and most importantly. My father and brother. We will do anything for a laugh and we will always...always drive by someone ready swing and run over their golf ball. Its a tradition.

And finally for all you married folks out there who will be to worried about not going out to get a round in because of the Mrs. Just put it this way to her: "Honey... I go golfing, or we get it on?" She will throw the keys at you is my guess.

I hope this helps and I will see you out on the course. Come on spring and summer. Lets get sexual.

I don't get sick

I never get sick. If I do, its minor. I never call in sick to work. Laying around at home accomplishes nothing. I can be sick and get stuff done at work. But today I just couldn't do it. I looked at my screen and went into a dizzy blank gaze. Being told to go home was probably the best thing for me.

So I got to come home and sleep it off for 45 minutes before having to gt my boy from school. Its days like today that are rare for me, but wishing I had that someone to help me out with my kids. Help me with myself. I got a 6 year old boy that is trying to take care of me. All he can do is say 'I will give you hugs to make you feel better.' Then of course its me taking care of him. Which is fine. I will always put myself aside to help these little shits. I love them more than anything in this world.

Effff I hate being sick. So dumb.

My Best Friends Birthday!

I blogged about my boy Jaxon for his B-day, so now its time for Taylor's. Here is the deal with this girl. She is by far one the most awesome girls on this planet. Since she was just a little tyke, she has done just about anything to get a laugh. Not much has changed over the years. She will still do anything for that laugh. Taylor is also one of those kids you envy in the fact that it doesn't take much for her to learn something. She is athletic. She may be the next girl version of Tony Hawk. Who knows? The best part about her, is she very loving and social. I was very shy when I was younger. Her Mom no different. So watching her outgoing personality has been really fun to watch.

She is a movie goer like her Dad. She can quote movies and has started to correct mine. She loves to get on her 4 Wheeler and ride all day when we go camping. She has a great English accent she has been working on for no reason. But we talk to each other like we are from England a lot. I have no idea how it started?

Taylor is a great sister to her brother. She is always willing to help him with things he can't do. Jaxon wants to do all the stuff Taylor does. She loves playing with him and they love each other very dearly. I have to separate them at times, but for the most part they are so good to each other. Its fun watching them play together.

Taylor is my best friend. We laugh, we love and we have fun. 10 years have gone faster than I wanted. She is growing into a beautiful young girl who I admire and adore with all my heart. She is the other rock in my life that keeps me grounded. She takes care of me when I need it most and has put my feelings first these last couple of years trying to make me happy. She is an incredible person. I have forever changed as a person because of her. 10 years ago today, I became the proudest father in the world. I love you so much Taylor Lynn Wolfley! Thank you for being you. Thank you for the life you have given me.

I suck at shopping

I am a horrid Christmas shopper. I always have been. But in past years, it was always "I will grab that for them." Or one or two things for the significant other. But having to do it all. I am freaking out. I have spent a lot of money and I have like 5 things for each of them. I sit in the stores and just look at things. I dont pick them up, I just look at them thinking...Should I get that? I am still struggling with clothes for Taylor. She is not a trendy girl at all. So I cant find anything for her.

I was really really excited for this extended time off because I was flat out burned out at work. I mean just brain dead. A ton of stressful and continual months of insane testing. But now I am overly stressed with all this. I know they will love what I have got for them. I dunno people. Maybe deep down, I am more worried about the kids with this being the first Christmas with all these major changes in their lives. Regardless I suck at shopping. I really suck at it!! I am hiring someone to shop for Taylor next year. Plan on it... all of you.

I love being vague

I love being vague. Because its almost as fun as that other thing. I do it to my kids all the time when they ask questions. There was this one time they asked me this one question and Ohhh man you should have seen there faces when I gave them the answer. Probably the funniest comeback ever in the history of comebacks. Good times...Good times.

Let me put it this way... Multiply that one number by infinity & take it 2 the depths of forever & then you will have some vague idea what I'm talkin about... Ya feel me?